Reconsider.

Already there have been so many moments that make me reconsider the decision to come out here. The times when we all fight with each other just because people were never taught how to communicate appropriately. And I know I'm completely guilty of getting caught up in the emotions of it all and not thinking before I speak, or thinking too much before I speak.
This experience is so completely different from what I'd expect. It's so difficult to have to constantly interact with everyone. I feel a certain obligation to always be involved, and always be revealing exactly how I feel. And the reality for me is that I don't always want to be open with people. Sometimes I just feel like curling up in a little ball and hiding from the world. But someone always finds me. Always.

*sigh*

It sounds like I'm complaining, but really, I love it here. I know that I'm going to look back on this all and it will be amazing.

I miss everyone back home so much.